Anyone who knows me from a distance would tell I am a warm ever smiling positive friendly individual. Someone a little closer would know I am a strong opinionated patient and a loving person. At a little more closer look, they would say I am a person who is overly opinionated bordering on stubbornness , tolerant but with a sharp tongue , emotional to a level of being called stupid or crazy , over critical with an irritating astute ( I hate u for remembering this type) memory.
If my neighbours could hear the way I speak and what all I speak at home, they would pray to God everyday to not give them a child like me..Lol 😂 (most parents want an obedient child, don't they 🤔) Well it's partly because my normal conversation with my dad sounds like a fight to outsiders..( face palm) Also I have this " of course I am right " ring to whatever I speak you know.. 😎 ( hereditary problem 😊)
So , imagine the same Anupama to be married one fine day bound by the unspoken invisible but all over the place marital expectations ; she in front of her in laws asking for what to do when and answering haanji most of the times....doesn't it look like a split personality disorder ?? It surely does! I shock myself most of the times ! What is more astounding is how naturally it comes to me! 😁 I start doubting myself if I am becoming unrecognizable to myself in that bahu mode.
Fortunately I am still the same strong opinionated person , just that I don't give my opinions until I am asked to and don't show off my strength until needed. 😜😜 It's about giving space for the new home to know the loving and obedient side of me before they have to put up with the stubborn part may be. Lol..😂
Coming back to my musing, I always wonder seeing my mom and other mothers around me as to how were they when they were girls. There is no way they might have had a problem with a messy room then too 😋 he he..When I listen to some of them , I can sense that some miss that girl who they used to be but some have managed to keep that silly girl part intact in them. As a lesson , I keep reminding myself that no matter how madly I love this man I am still going to be sane enough to realise that I don't need to completely modify the woman he fell in love with,in order to accomodate his world ( it would be anti climax for him! ) .So for now this is Anupama 2.0 in transition, growing to be the lady of the house from being a pampered daughter/ bully of her house. 😇😇
